I've FAILED!!!

During my secondary school days, I remember I failed once before.....during Form 4......for Pendidikan Moral. I was deeply saddened by it eventhough it wasn't considered as a core subject or in other words a very important subject then. But the actual fact of failing and finding a bright, red, D on your report card is really disheartening! Maybe it was a culture shock....I don't know....maybe I was still adapting to the transition from Form 3 to Form 4. Whatever it is, I've told myself then, that this will be the first and last time for me failing a subject!

And I've worked hard for the rest of the years till I came out of secondary school and into Form 6 and finally got a place in Dentistry in University Malaya. Of course, being a professional course, this ain't easy as well..... Stress was undoubtly present, lingering on everyone as time goes by. And I work even harder for my first professional exam....and scored pretty well (1 A+, 2 A's, and a B). This time I am in my second year.....had had my semester mid-term test just before CNY, and results were out today....

As the title suggested, I've failed......I've failed yet again!.......this time, for a subject called Dental Material and Technology. Yes...as you would have guessed it, it is a core subject of Dentistry.... I don't know what happened.......I mean, I could answer those questions......well, at least I thought I could....

And result shows I've obtained an E! Man....that is such a HUGE blow to my face! But I was not alone.....99% of the class failed too..... Only 1 out of 83 students passed.....and that also was with a grade C. Of course, I can't take this as a consolation........ Others fail, doesn't mean I have to fail too.....only a loser will take that into account! And I know I am not one! Why do you wanna be among the 'average' in a Distribution curve?? Opt to be the extreme.....at the better end of course! That's what I always wanted to...

Eventhough I've failed, I know I can't give up now......instead, I've got to etch this FAILURE to my skin and into my heart, if it's possible, as a constant reminder for me to work even even harder!!! Maybe this is a blessing in disguise......God wants me to be more hardworking, and making me fail this time serves as a booster shot to raise my fighting spirit, as in a booster shot in vacinnation for a higher immune response....

My second professional exam is nearing.....less than 2 months to go..... William, I know you can do it again this time.....you will study at your best and hardest....you will get all A's for your exam this time. I know you can! I know I can!!! *fire burning*